Anxious about my 1st day 'playing with the big kids' (regular WOD Crossfit members), I walked into the Gym and was greeted by friendly faces. We warmed up, split into teams of 3 and were given our 1st workout:
Workout #1
50 pullups
100 air squats
50 PULLUPS - I thought. The most I've ever done is 5!
As I started the workout with my team (regular members) - I got through 6 without a problem. As I got to the 7-10, I knew this was going to be a challenging workout day for me. Minutes later (felt like hours) I finished 48 pull ups. I had to do 3-4, rest, 3-4 more, rest....and so on.
I started my air squats with my arms shaking uncontrollably. I got through my first 50 squats and realized my team mates were done of both their sets. I then proceeded to do my second 50 without resting as I didn't want to let my team down.
TIME! I called out - and then rested for approx 3mins.
At this point, my arms still shaking, legs jello - I was feeling unsure whether I'd get through the next workout.
Workout #2
Move 2500 pounds - could break it up however you wanted ie. I had 55lbs to lift so I had to lift this 45x......
As I was doing a lighter weight than my teammates, I had to start 1st. My 1st 10 reps went well - during my break time, I knew this was going to be TOUGH. As I set out for my second set of 10 - the nausea, weakness and overall body fatigue kicked in. I got through it. On my 3rd set of 10, I got through 4 reps and at this point - couldn't feel my body, I was weak all over and shaking uncontrollably. It was then that I broke into tears on my knees and knew I could not finish...
Why the tears?
- I was completely fatigued and could not control my emotions
- I was upset as I thought I was letting my team down
- I was overwhelmed with the intensity
The instructor, at this point, said - "Ok Stephanie, you're done". I got myself over to the wall, with my tail between my legs knowing that on Monday, December 27th - the team workout Kicked my Ass! Mike came over to offer his condolences and I sat embarassed about my earned title of "The Girl who Cried at Crossfit" (self labeled).
At the end of the workout the "Cash Out" was 40 Handstand PushUps. I did not attempt this as I could not feel my arms.
The Moral of this Story - I gave the workout everything I had. I can walk away with my head held high knowing that I tried my best. If I never tried this workout because of fear, I would never know what my body is capable of. Really, I think I did pretty darn good considering that I'm in my 1st month of basics. I am not the fittest in the group but I am trying.
Shout out to Alyson and Mike who are machines! What an awesome day for them. They powered through the workouts and had some left to give at the end. I am proud to call them my friends and support system!
PS - I came back to Crossfit class this morning and did another challenging workout. Sore, fatigued and still humbled - I again did my best....
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