Verdict

I got my preview pictures back from my photo shoot and the verdict is........


I LOVE THEM!

I knew I would love them before I got them back because of that good 'ol feeling I had when I was getting ready.  You know, the 'I am beautiful' mantra I was experiencing.  So during my lunch break on Monday, I picked them up at the Pilates Centre, drove home - by this time I had burned away 1/2 hour of my hour lunch - opened my laptop, inserted the disk and reviewed the pics by slideshow on repeat for 10mins.  One of the reasons I did this is because I thought that I had less clothes on than I actually did.  I was fully clothed and the sexyiness came from the fact that you could see the lacy top of the stay ups in the pics.  That's it.

I couldn't be happier that I did this.  What a special and positive experience.  I have to give a 'shout out' to Rachel Peters for being such an amazing artist.  WOW!

The Photo Shoot

On Friday, after my awesome getaway to Bawston - I had my first 'photo shoot'.  This was organized by my  pole dancing instructor in hopes that women at the studio would seize the opportunity and celebrate thier beauty, class and well.....sexyiness ;)

I had booked my photo shoot time 2 weeks in advance and from then until the moment the first picture snapped, I was super stressed as to what would I wear.  What's sexy?  How far could I uncomfortably push the envelope? I wasn't feeling the exposed mid drift idea so what to wear......  I had decided that in Boston, I would find an outfit and at the time this settled my anxiety.

While in Boston, Mike and I shopped and shopped.  I perused the stores looking for the 'perfect outfit'.  It didn't come, so I left with no sexy outfit.  Boooo! 

We returned home the night before the big day and I was now in panic mode.  I looked through my closet and nothing jumped out at me.  I had been given a 'blingy' bra from my Synchro coaches/girls and considered this but needed something to cover up with.  Didn't find the 'something'.  The day of the shoot I headed to the Mall with no idea in mind and knots in my stomach.  Why am I doing this? I thought.  Like really, why? 

I finally found some random items that I would put together - purple men's dress shirt, blingy necklace, belt, lace tiered skirt, pink tank, wickedly high high heeled shoes (2 outfits for 1 costume change).  I headed home proud of my purchases but still wondering how I would pull the 'look' together....

As the final hour hit - it was go time.  I had to do my hair, makeup and put all my practiced, researched beauty techniques to the test.  (Ok, well maybe just the 2 makeup application classes I have attended in the past).  With the last comb of my hair - I felt a feeling that I've NEVER felt before.  I looked in the mirror and thought "I look sexy.." and furthermore "I feel beautiful!".  This is what THAT feeling is.  How special.

I arrived at my 'shoot' 15 minutes early (sweating perfusely, hoping that it wasn't showing through my dress shirt), received some last minute fashion advise from my instructor and it was the time.  As I talked to the photographer, I was feeling more and more at ease with everything.  It was a great 25 minutes for me.  I loosened up and tried out some 'model' poses that I would never do in everyday life.  (Obviously)

In the end, I did this for myself.  I want to look back at myself in 50 years and think "What a great time in my life".  No matter how the pictures turn out, I am confident that I will like them because of how I felt for the 5 minutes in the mirror.  In the spirit of seeittryit.  I did it and it felt good!